gender under construction

For some time in the recent past i have (minorly as it goes) struggled with my gender identity. Over the past two years, i've pondered and researched about gender, gender identity and how i think i could fit into it. Those who interact with me in person would certainly assume i'm a guy as i pretty much present that way and had identified as one since before i knew anything about anything. And i don't especially mind this.

So what did i find out about myself? Well, i will spare the long and irrevelant parts, but i came to the conclusion that i just don't feel very strongly attached to anything here in particular, nor feel a need to make sure i conform to anything. i guess the best way to put it is that don't think that i make a terribly good "guy", and would make an even worse "girl"... and that's okay. That's...me. Before you say it, i know that the "realm in between" is not simply one thing in itself, but for now i find satisfaction in this answer.

My point is simple, theoretically. My journey, if you can call it such a thing, really has taught me a lot about the process and it shows me just a small taste of the stuff that trans or other gender nonconforming people have went through to get to where they are; to get to who they are. They're all awesome people. And while things are better than they once were, it is still saddening to see all of the hate that they must navigate from intolerant people afraid of stuff they don't understand. Typically i don't like to bring up politics, but the fact that this is even political at this point is very disappointing.